All I Want to Do (Is These 200 Things)

 

1. Visit Dubai
2. Visit Austrailia
3. Hit someone with a skateboard
4. Get married at the Biltmore in front of Diana or the South terrace
5. Name a star
6. Be on the crew for a professional theatrical production
7. Go on a cruise
8. Join the Navy
9. Dye a pink stripe in my hair
10. See Simple Plan live
11. Go to Bermuda/The Bahamas
12. Visit a late-night talk show
13. Meet Dr. Neil deGrasse Tyson
14. Go to Disney Land
15. Go on a mission trip
16. Volunteer at Riley's
17. Complete a 365 project
18. Spend a month in Chicago
19. Attend a Red Sox vs. Yankees game in Fenway Park
20. Spend a day with rescued animals
21. Hold public office somewhere
22. Stand in the Louis IV room in the Biltmore
23. Own a custom-made skateboard
24. Call the customer service just to thank them for the great service
25. See a WWE event live
26. Start a social movement on a cause I believe in
27. Attend a major awards show
28. See the civil war ghosts in South Carolina
29. Get a tattoo
30. Spend a date under the stars
31. Appear on the Who's Who list
32. Break the record for the largest sticker collection
33. Take a stranger out to dinner
34. Visit the birthplace or gravesite of a cultural icon
35. Stay in a historic building/area
36. Start a ripple effect
37. Get a song written on the radio
38. Make a documentary
39. Own a newsboy cap
40. Go on an archaeological dig
41. Make a toast at a stranger's wedding
42. Go to Warped Tour and stay for the entire event
43. Graduate from Huntington University
44. Take part in BigBrothers BigSisters
45. Live in or within 20 minutes of Boston for at least a year

46. Write a letter to at least 3 of my closest friends to let them know how much they mean to me

47. Touch an endangered species
48. Attend a march
49. Maintain a year-long journal
50. Make a difference in someone's life
51. Volunteer at the food bank
52. Own a script of a favorite show/movie
53. Go to the Holocaust museum
54. Spend a week in a hotel in a foreign place solo
55. Meet the cast of Supernatural
56. Sew an outfit
57. Make an important speech
58. Attend GenCon
59. Go on a thrift store shopping spree
60. Visit WB Studios in Burbank, CA
61. Change my middle and first name legally
62. Mail an official care package
63. Give someone official lessons
64. Stay in a B&B
65. Master HTML
67. Take a roadtrip with Stephanie to South Carolina
68. See the friends I miss most
69. Take a small town shopping spree
70. Shake hands with a political figure
71. Assistant direct a production
72. Live in a small town for at least a year

73. Give ballroom dance lessons

74. Meet Rod/Patti Blagojevich
75. Dance in the rain with someone in the middle of the street
76. Go to Disney Land/World on Christmas
77. Watch and own every Gilmore girls episode
78. Adopt a diner
79. Get a black eye
80. Watch a rugby match
81. See a Broadway play or musical
82. Start a T-shirt buisness
83. Invest in the stockmarket
84. Live downtown somewhere
85. See Wicked live
86. Visit every state
87. Go to The Biltmore on Christmas
88. Watch and own every episode of Supernatural
89. Sail a boat
90. Get baptized
91. Go to McDonald's in France
92. Volunteer in Rwanda
93. Have a patriotic Halloween costume
94. Own a horse
95. Write an article on Big Brother
96. Donate blood
97. Poke a mini octopus
98. Embarrass my children in public using a redneck mobile home
99. Start a 365 photo project
100. Go to VidCon
101. Go to Toronto
102. Meet any one of my favorite Youtubers
103. Go to New York with friends
104. Make a flash montage
105. Go to an Apple store
106. Take part in a vlog project
107. Go to a Robyn concert
108. Introduce a couple and then go to their wedding
109. Be on a jury
110. Bring in the new year with friends
111. Go to a Burberry store
112. Kiss someone in the rain
113. Visit a lighthouse
114. Go to a grape stomp
115. Lose my voice
116. Watch an Olympic game
117. Go my whole life drug free
118. Own a ferret or chinchilla
119. Eat an entire bagel
120. Own a boat
121. Take an exericse class
122. Taste every flavor at Coldstone Creamery
123. Be a camp counselor
124. Hold a drive
125. Be someone's best friend
126. Visit Carnegie Hall
127. Be a maid of honor
128. Go to my senior prom
129. Tour a cave
130. Own a Smartphone
131. Go skydiving indoors
132. Spend a month on a space observing getaway
133. Go outdoor rock climbing
134. Take part in a national event
135. Go to a jazz concert
136. Bake cupcakes
137. Watch an NHL game
138. Pass an entire year of math
139. Drink Red  Bull
140. Create a map of my life
141. Keep a pet from birth to death
142. Adopt a child
143. Play a Gamecube
144. Take a friend to Plymouth
145. Visit Ron Jon's Surf Shop
146. Go on a legitimate picnic
147. Hold a koala
148. Learn to drive
149. See Haley's Comet
150. Learn to play chess
151. Attend a Youtube gathering or other live event
152. Appear in a story in a national magazine or newspaper
153. Spend the night in a graveyard
154. Walk through the entire National Liberty Museum
155. Watch the sunrise on New Years Day
156. Go snowboarding indoors
157. Go on a shoe drop
158. Plant a garden
159. Ride in a dune buggy
160. Visit India
161. Spend a weekend in a lake town
162. Pet a squirrel
163. Visit the Mall of America
164. Write a zine
165. Be able to count 1-10 in 10 different languages
166. Walk inside of Radio City
167. Travel on a yacht
168. Meet John Green
169. Watch a volcano erupt
170. Watch Little Shop of Horrors
172. Pet a wallaby
173. Eat a whole candy apple
174. Fill an entire journal
175. Learn to swim
176. Write a list in order
177. Visit Busche Gardens
178. Own all of John Green's book
179. Walk inside of Studio 54
180. Finish this list
181. Catch a snipe
182. Attend a state fair
183. Complete an internship
184. Attend church every Sunday for a year
185. Help out at a kitchen on Thanksgiving
186. Be confirmed
187. Help paint a mural
188. Weave a basket
189. Attend a high school reunion
190. Job shadow someone
191. Eat movie theater candy
192. Go to a college or job fair
193. Adopt a grandparent
194. Tutor someone
195. Take part in a toy drop
196. Decorate my room the way I want it
197. Introduce the world to me
198. See a live orchestra
199. Have my fantasy life/movie moment occur spontaneously
200. Master the drums

1, 2, 3, 4...AGH! Make the numbers stop!

I can't stand math. It's as simple as that. i can't stand looking at numbers, let alone solving the problem.Nobody seems to understand, as emo as that may sound. I can't even handle simple problems like long division or even telling time on an analog clock. I can't measure anything that is a 'weird' length. I can't grasp the concept of exponents or scientific notation. I freak out around decimals and fractions. The list goes on and on. Most people use math countless times a day. I, on the other hand, avoid it as much as possible. I am most always estimating things, hoping it's my lucky day.

If you look at my math grade, you'd probably laugh at me. I actually tried at least 80% of the assignments/quizzes/tests and yet the majority is also 60% or below. I try, I really do. I try to the point that I cry and get so aggravated I want to throw something or someone across the room.

I think it's so much more depressing when I think about the person that took the time out of their day to help me with math. They could have been doing something much more fun like hanging out with his "cooler" friends down the road. Not only am I failing in the actual classes, I'm also failing him. He wasted all of that time helping me and for nothing. I just really want him to know how much I appreciate his volunteered time and how sorry I really am. When others try helping me with math, they just give me the answer, get annoyed, think of me as being dumb, and so on and so forth. He, on the other hand, doesn't care if he has to do the same problem three times or answer common math sense questions for me. Unlike the others, he never gave up on me.

The bottom line is that I give up. At this point, I have no problem failing my current math class. Well, that's actually false. I DO have a problem with it, but my emotional health is screaming at me to just give up. I don't like giving up. I hate that phrase, but sometimes we all have to make sacrifices. I just miss that feeling I had back in elementary school when I understood everything and could follow what the numbers meant on the board. Unfortunately, that didn't last past fourth grade. Now the only thing that keeps me going is the excitement, relief, and happiness I feel when I understand a mathematical concept or sometimes when I simply solve a problem. I've been behind for so long, I have this feeling that there's no catching up now.

Consider this to be the official I quit math post.

Hero (s Are Made When You Make A Choice)

You have most likely heard about the event I organized at school on Thursday, April 8th called One Day Without Shoes. The sole purpose of this event, of going to school shoeless, was to raise awareness about third-world countries and their lack of necessities. TOMS Shoes is the original creator of this event. It is considered a "for-profit company." That means that minus expenses such as employment fees, shipping, traveling costs, and so on, all of the money goes towards those children in need of shoes. The way TOMS works is that money doesn't matter. It's one for one. Every time they sell a pair of shoes, they give a pair of shoes to a child in need. More than 600,000 shoes have been given away to 28 different countries. Purdue, Lafayette, and West Lafayette together helped purchase 174 pairs. It doesn't seem like much, but it is. For most children they are given to, that's their first pair and that one pair can last them up until adolescence. Around 300 McCutcheon students participated, but merely 3,000 people participated nationally, McCutcheon not included.

I can't say this enough times, but I am so proud of our school and the amount of people that actually joined in on the event. I never would have dreamed to get such positive feedback! I wish I could personally thank each and every participant. This event really took to my heart. If you know anyone that participated in the event and has not already seen this, please send this to them so that I can express my thanks to them.

I know some people took part in the event just because they had the chance to not wear shoes to school, but there were so many others that really supported the cause and realized how good we have it here. We get to go to school! We get to wear shoes! We get to go home everyday and not worry about how we will feed our family that day. We are so lucky to live here and many got to realize that through this cause. 

I have always stood for human rights and helping people. I volunteer within our community with every chance I get, I go out of my way to hep as many people as I can, and most of my future aspirations have to do with helping people. I believe that all people should should have the same basic rights. It breaks my heart to see that there are people complaining about having math homework while there's a child in Afghanistan who can't even walk the 9 miles to school because they have no shoes. Through time, I have come to realize that things don't just change on their own. People have to get up and bring that change.

We all have things in our lives that makes us want to just give up. Perhaps a parent died, maybe a friend turned their back on you, perhaps you broke up a long-term relationship, whatever it is, if you were to look back on your life seconds before you died, would you remember any of these things or would you remember all of the ways you have changed the world? 

The next awareness day I am partaking in is on April 16th on behalf of the LGBT (Lesbian, gay, bisexual, trans-gender) community. No, I am not involved in that community, but as I stated earlier, I do believe in equal rights. On this day, I will not say a single word. That's right! I am going silent for the whole day to bring attention to the harassment, bullying, and similar hardships that LGBT members go through daily. This will not be a school event like One Day Without Shoes due to the sensitivity of the topic, but feel free to join in on that day too.

As you can probably guess, I have so much more that I want to say, but I will stop right here.