Friday, June 25, 2010

What's Wrong (With the World)


I wonder why the human race is so stupid. We march around the world, pretending we own the place-building, changing, controlling. When a volcanoe erups, a hurricane drowns a city, an earthquake buries countries, we are powerless but won't admit it. We settle anywhere that will sustain life and command the elements not to disturb us. We settle anywhere that will sustain life and commnd the elements not to disturb us. Over and over we are confronted with the awe-inspiring forces of nature, but our only responce is a quick burst of worldwide sympathy and aid, followed by a neat tally of donations whose numbers are then used to assist in elections.

Billions of dollars were sent to the Hurricane Katrina victims, relief was prepared. Before that, newspapers were flooded with survival stories and pleadings from tsunami victims. Yet now, what seems like so long after these horrors, the zealous spirit to help has been lost. The influence of humans does not extend to controlling the weather. But we are given the decision of what to do, of how to repair others when disaster strikes and long after it.

We refuse to learn from history, fighting over the same things over and over again. Starting at a young age, with small, repeated bickers over the same toy, this continues far into our lives. We fight in junior high then high school over friends and boys. If we losem we go back for more and hold a grudge that will poison everything else. The world war fights are so similar to each other that if you learn a few, you learn them all. Europe fights over royalties, and the phrase "thousands dead in the streets of Paris" can be played on a tape recorder on a loop. America has entangles itself in a war that is now being compared to Vietnam.

Yet we ccontinue on. We think of ourselves before others, and then we are shocked when we see the statistics of people going hungry. We send millions of dollars in aid across the ocean and turn a blind ere to those starving in our own community. People wonder how a parent can physically harm a child, and yet some will shout and swear at their spouse in front of a little one they think doesn't understand. Why do we feel sympathy for those with tears streaming down their TV faces but we can't see the pain of a weeping soul right next to us? We place judgments without understanding what goes on behind the doors of someone else's home, or what struggles they hide inside.

In the past we have enslaved fellow en, forcing them to bend to our will. Denying them the very right that we fight for daily and demand for ourselves. Even now, though not quite as literally, we have enslaved those that are not considered wealthy. They live without a living wage. Many families are unable to afford insurance and therefore doctors. The elderly are bound by complicated forms of Medicare insurance policies that make no sense.

We run our lives with hypocritical statements. We get angry and punish people if they do something we don't like. Then we turn around to do the exact same thing to the next person we see, from back-biting friends taking revenge on each other to politicians who can't keep their self-respect high without shooting others down. Civilized countries balk the inhumanity of war. But we broke the rules we'd set to prevent violations of basic human rights. Prisoners are kept withut knowing what they've been charged with-no chance at a trial or a lawyer, violating the very thing that sparked our contry into being.

We try to fix the small things that will disappear with time, ignore the harder problems no one wants to face. Leave them for the next generation to deal with. Debt mounts as someone else's problem, economies are teetering, and politicians are pulling up long-dead or nonexistant problems to distract us. In high school, one-week flings are treated like the real deal, and before you know it, choices lead you to have to make it the real deal. Our government applies Machavelli's "the end justifies the means," defending a patched-up job in Iraq with the accomplishment of a goal unrelated to why we began the fight. 

Now, after I'm done typing this, and you're done reading it, we will all go out into the world and do the same thing we have been doing for hundreds of thousands of years. We will be humans. We will close our eyes once more to the pain of the world because it hurts too much to see it. Because we are afraid we might see a little of that wrong in our own life. We are afraid of what we can't control, what we can't solve, and what we don't understand. I wonder why this cycle goes on and on, spreading throught the generations like some mutates diesease. I wonder why we all allow it to happen. 

Of course, this is what we all say in blogs like this and in similar books, magazines, vlogs, and so on and so forth, yet still nothing changes. What I don't understand is why we all realize how wrong this all is and how desperately it needs to be stopped, but we just shrug it off like a phase. If this is something that all people think about, complain about, etc. then why has there been no change? I must admit, this has all made me feel slightly like a hypocrite, because sometimes I go about my life, doing some things that I had just complained about. Perhaps we all complain about this sort of thing just to get attention and to make people think that we are a good person, but what can you do, eh?

Thursday, June 24, 2010

The Nerd Fighter (Song)


There's one philosophy, a guiding force in my life, that I believe in above many others. I will forever be thinking about it, about him, when everyone else is sick of listening to it.

Lately, books like "Twilight", "A Series of Unfortunate Events", "Harry Potter," and so on and so forth have taken a backseat to a writer that I happened to stumble upon when Youtubing random people. John Green caught my undivided attention.

All of John's lively vlogs and fiery paragraphs, his influence over nerdfighteria, and his audacity to really use the free speech that we have been gifted with wormed their ways into my everyday life. The term "nerd fighting", a term used to describe releasing the inner nerd and wearing it happily, became my mantra. And the facts about John-that he lives in Indianapolis, loves Judy Blume, and that he's older than Hank-became better known to me than my friends' birthdays.

If there's anything John Green has taught me-and believe me, there's a lot-it's that you have to believe and take pride in yourself. This is the real essence of nerd fighting, or at least the positive application of it.In an earlier vlog, he describes the term as being, "nerds who fight, nerds who tackle the scourge of popular people," Since then, it has been used with Youtube's finest vloggers like Shane Dawson, Tyler Oakley, Mitchell Davis, and many more. In my life, it's about staying true to who you really are and being a part of a community.

I talk about his book "Wiill Grayson, Will Grayson" almost all of the time and I pretty much use it as an alternative bible for my life. I am proud to say, that I even owned one of the very first copies released before the actual release date. I have highlighted, tabbed, reread, etc. this book to an extreme. I proudly sport the book to all. No one at my school has even heard of it though, and no one cares to hear of it from me.

It's not like I'm new to being the weird one. While most of the girls in my school listen to Lady Gaga and watch Sex in the City, I pop in a He is We CD and my Supernatural DVDs. Who wouldn't love a show that stars two quite attractive actors?

To further prove my johngreenmania, I should talk about "Will Grayson, Will Grayson", which I was introduced to when he read the first chapter of it in a vlog and which paved the path through the rest of my life for me. Would it be odd to say that this book has had more of an affect on my life than my favorite teacher? I've reached a place in my life where I don't know what I'd do if John Green were to suddenly and tragically pass away. I've faithfully defended the slams I have received from my lunch table. "Oh, you're reading the gay book again?" and the painful ripping of a page. These have all pretty much been the norm coming from them.

I don't really care what anyone thinks. I have been quite a crybaby though when it comes to people insulting my friends, dreams, and obsessions. I even exchanged very heated words with the members of my lunch table for repeatedly bashing John Green and his writing.

While I may be the only girl at my school that reads John Green and watches The Colbert Report, I know something comes from this. Those who are afraid to do anything that's not been preapproved by MTV or the "cool" kids are also frequently those who lack imagination. People who have a drive to do things their own way or have a certain advantage, I suppose. Anyone can be an athlete or a businesswoman, a writer or an artist. But without some spark of creativity, of individuality, how will they run their race or sell their idea? Who, in today's ubercompetitive world, will choose the girl who straightened her beautiful curly hair just to be the cocaptain of a cheerleading squad? Isn't the imaginative tomboy who listens to Japanese music that she doesn't understand the words of but has a killer beat, a more interesting candidate?

I know I may never reach my goal of being best friends with John Green, but I'm certain I'll be able to squeeze my way into a dream college and find success in the real world, largely because of my quirks. You can't be steered away from your version of the truth, at least not if you want to make it further than the same small town you grew up in, reminiscing about how you could have married that rich dude.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

To Noah With Love

So today is June sixteenth, also known as, the day one of my best friends came into this world. Since it's his birthday, I decided to make a special blog post just to show him my appreciation of him.


First off Noah, you and I tell each other how much we appreciate one another, but to be honest, there's no way to even describe my appreciation for you. I think you deserve the best birthday anyone can ask for, and I'm working hard to do that for you, even if it means that it will be the best belated birthday ever. (^.^)

I think you're quite a fantastic person and I know that I tell you this a lot, and I know that most of the time you don't belive me, but you really should start to. Like everyone else here, your life is certainly not perfect and neither are you, but you compensate very well. Whenever anyone needs a helping hand, someone to talk to, or even someone to listen to, you can always be counted on. You're not one of those people that pretends to care. Whether you know the person or not, you seem to have no problem putting your needs and anything else aside just to help them. It's a beautiful thing really, your caring personality. I find it quite unique and valueable. 

You seem to think that you're one heck of a boring person to talk to, but I also disagree with that. On May eleventh at 8:33 PM, you sent me a text that I'll never forget, because without you realizing it, you took an enormous weight off of my shoulder. It seems everytime I talk to you, I feel a similar way. You have the strong gift to change lives unknowingly and to heal hearts. It's a powerful gift and I'm glad to see that you use it everyday.

You have so much going for you. You're intelligent, loving, caring, honest, strong,and I don't even know what else. If anyone I know ends up changing the world for the better, It'll probably be you. No matter where life leads you, I know that you will continue helping people in so many ways.

I can't imagine going through this past year. It's been quite rocky for the both of us, and I'm glad that I walked (most of it) with you. Sometimes, I feel sorry for the people that don't have you, because boy oh boy, are they missing out on a terrific person. I want to keep you in my life forever. No matter where life takes us and no matter how angry we may get at each other, promise me we'll always be there, at least in heart and soul?

You're amazing. It's just that simple. It's a great adjective to describe every aspect of you.

To be honest, I'm not sure what else to say. There's so much about you that I love and appreciate that I can't begin to sum them all up.

With love, Checkers
P.S. Happy Birthday! Stay gold! Cheer up Charlie! Love ya!


And now I make this vow to you,
To keep until the end.
I’ll help you through the pain and tears,
Until our rivers bend.
So if you ever need someone,
You know just who to call.
I’ll be here by the phone,
To catch you if you fall.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

The (200 Things I) Fear

  1. Using unfamiliar tools
  2. Opposite materials rubbing together (EX: Denim & nylon)
  3. Running into people
  4. The unknown
  5. My physical imperfections being noticed
  6. Asking for help
  7. Paying for something without having enough money
  8. Swimming
  9. Falling
  10. Sitting in the front seat
  11. Defeat
  12. Seeing a mosquito on me
  13. Getting lost
  14. Singing/dancing in front of people
  15. Being ridiculed
  16. Tripping
  17. My “strobe attacks”
  18. Consuming expired foods
  19. Failing
  20. Broken glass
  21. My opinion not being accepted by others
  22. Gang affiliations
  23. Competing
  24. Mold
  25. Squirrels/chipmunks
  26. Rock piles
  27. The distant future
  28. Being yelled at
  29. Driving
  30. Swallowing chunky yogurt
  31. Disappointing people
  32. Failing in front of people
  33. Rejection
  34. Unexpected mirror reflections
  35. Being too short for certain activities
  36. Inside of factories
  37. Disorder
  38. Direct eye contact
  39. Childbirth
  40. Health classes
  41. Climbing unfamiliar fences
  42. Puking
  43. Nosebleeds
  44. Ruining something
  45. Standing up to people
  46. Being hated
  47. Yelling
  48. Using the restroom near people
  49. Stairs
  50. Forgetting
  51. Touching my bellybutton
  52. Unfamiliar chemicals
  53. Emergencies
  54. Gaining weight
  55. Dead things
  56. Sharp tilting
  57. Crossing bridges
  58. Being singled out
  59. Getting in the way
  60. Being burnt
  61. Heights
  62. People I love getting mad at me
  63. Stuttering
  64. Poverty
  65. Participating at the board in class
  66. Red semi-trucks
  67. Bing forgotten
  68. Worms
  69. Being evaluated negatively in social situations
  70. Math tests
  71. Lice
  72. Chickens
  73. Being late
  74. Walking beneath birds
  75. Confronting people
  76. Hereditary diseases
  77. My blood
  78. Places where a death occurred
  79. Being too noticed
  80. Losing something or someone
  81. Not being included
  82. Living organisms in my body
  83. Public nudity
  84. Large fires
  85. Being unable to lift something in front of people
  86. Appearing impolite
  87. Having something stolen
  88. Being too unique
  89. Climbing trees
  90. Weapons
  91. A change being unaccepted
  92. Certain fabrics
  93. Razors
  94. Sharp turns
  95. Making a wrong decision
  96. Being unable to handle something
  97. Wearing mismatched clothing
  98. Toilet handles
  99. Stage fright
100. Being unprepared
101. Sleeping in public
102. Being too noticed
103. Being too rude
104. Reporting a mistake
105. Asking strangers
106. Not remembering someone
107. Appearing selfish or mean
108. Dropping things
109. Appearing unfit
110. Approaching new people
111. Being unaware
112. Riding with new drivers
113. Awkward social situations
114. The number 6
115. Riding on motorcycles
116. Not following routines
117. Being caught not knowing
118. Geese/Ducks
119. Not taking proper precautions
120. Settling with odd numbers
121. Not knowing what to say
122. Teeth
123. Looking bad in pictures
124. Being unfair
125. Laughing in improper situations
126. Appearing helpless
127. Goats
128. Forgetting someone
129. Not wearing a seatbelt
130. Cooking
131. Retro televisions
132. Elevators
133. Being in a shower or tub without water
134. Certain words
135. Having dandruff
136. Splinters
137. Butterflies
138. Strange foods
139. Bubble baths
140. Ferris wheels
141. Closed shower curtains when I’m not in them
142. Steepness
143. Touching webs
144. Stories held up by columns
145. Dusting in high places
146. Using chalk
147. Breaking things
148. Tornadoes
149. Holes in walls
150. Water guns
151. Transparent floors
152. My sister
153. “Crawly” bugs
154. Appearing in the media
155. Some religious paintings
156. Eating too much
157. Being fired
158. Power outages
159. Snails
160. Moist seaweed
161. Shaking ceiling fans
162. Witnessing surgery
163. Using unfamiliar restrooms or showers
164. Fog/mist
165. Mimes
166. Being improperly dressed
167. Stabbing people
168. Cracked windshields
169. Hurricanes
170. Staining things
171. Interstates
172. Depth
173. Changing lanes
174. Gas stations
175. Transparent showers
176. Veins/arteries
178. Floods
179. Running out of batteries
180. Tanning
181. Thinking about drinking from straws
182. Being sunburned
183. Tunnels
184. Using unfamiliar blankets and pillows
185. Killing things
186. Old furniture
187. Getting in trouble
188. Being grabbed
189. Plating things
190. Getting off an escalator
191. Street lights at night
192. Open closet doors
193. Our school library
194. Lights in the midst of darkness
195. Acorns and other like objects falling
196. Fireplaces
197. Bats
198. Thrown objects
199. Being watched while eating
200. Eating in public

Saturday, April 24, 2010

All I Want to Do (Is These 200 Things)

 

1. Visit Dubai
2. Visit Austrailia
3. Hit someone with a skateboard
4. Get married at the Biltmore in front of Diana or the South terrace
5. Name a star
6. Be on the crew for a professional theatrical production
7. Go on a cruise
8. Join the Navy
9. Dye a pink stripe in my hair
10. See Simple Plan live
11. Go to Bermuda/The Bahamas
12. Visit a late-night talk show
13. Meet Dr. Neil deGrasse Tyson
14. Go to Disney Land
15. Go on a mission trip
16. Volunteer at Riley's
17. Complete a 365 project
18. Spend a month in Chicago
19. Attend a Red Sox vs. Yankees game in Fenway Park
20. Spend a day with rescued animals
21. Hold public office somewhere
22. Stand in the Louis IV room in the Biltmore
23. Own a custom-made skateboard
24. Call the customer service just to thank them for the great service
25. See a WWE event live
26. Start a social movement on a cause I believe in
27. Attend a major awards show
28. See the civil war ghosts in South Carolina
29. Get a tattoo
30. Spend a date under the stars
31. Appear on the Who's Who list
32. Break the record for the largest sticker collection
33. Take a stranger out to dinner
34. Visit the birthplace or gravesite of a cultural icon
35. Stay in a historic building/area
36. Start a ripple effect
37. Get a song written on the radio
38. Make a documentary
39. Own a newsboy cap
40. Go on an archaeological dig
41. Make a toast at a stranger's wedding
42. Go to Warped Tour and stay for the entire event
43. Graduate from Huntington University
44. Take part in BigBrothers BigSisters
45. Live in or within 20 minutes of Boston for at least a year
46. Write a letter to at least 3 of my closest friends to let them know how much they mean to me
47. Touch an endangered species
48. Attend a march
49. Maintain a year-long journal
50. Make a difference in someone's life
51. Volunteer at the food bank
52. Own a script of a favorite show/movie
53. Go to the Holocaust museum
54. Spend a week in a hotel in a foreign place solo
55. Meet the cast of Supernatural
56. Sew an outfit
57. Make an important speech
58. Attend GenCon
59. Go on a thrift store shopping spree
60. Visit WB Studios in Burbank, CA
61. Change my middle and first name legally
62. Mail an official care package
63. Give someone official lessons
64. Stay in a B&B
65. Master HTML
67. Take a roadtrip with Stephanie to South Carolina
68. See the friends I miss most
69. Take a small town shopping spree
70. Shake hands with a political figure
71. Assistant direct a production
72. Live in a small town for at least a year
73. Give ballroom dance lessons
74. Meet Rod/Patti Blagojevich
75. Dance in the rain with someone in the middle of the street
76. Go to Disney Land/World on Christmas
77. Watch and own every Gilmore girls episode
78. Adopt a diner
79. Get a black eye
80. Watch a rugby match
81. See a Broadway play or musical
82. Start a T-shirt buisness
83. Invest in the stockmarket
84. Live downtown somewhere
85. See Wicked live
86. Visit every state
87. Go to The Biltmore on Christmas
88. Watch and own every episode of Supernatural
89. Sail a boat
90. Get baptized
91. Go to McDonald's in France
92. Volunteer in Rwanda
93. Have a patriotic Halloween costume
94. Own a horse
95. Write an article on Big Brother
96. Donate blood
97. Poke a mini octopus
98. Embarrass my children in public using a redneck mobile home
99. Start a 365 photo project
100. Go to VidCon
101. Go to Toronto
102. Meet any one of my favorite Youtubers
103. Go to New York with friends
104. Make a flash montage
105. Go to an Apple store
106. Take part in a vlog project
107. Go to a Robyn concert
108. Introduce a couple and then go to their wedding
109. Be on a jury
110. Bring in the new year with friends
111. Go to a Burberry store
112. Kiss someone in the rain
113. Visit a lighthouse
114. Go to a grape stomp
115. Lose my voice
116. Watch an Olympic game
117. Go my whole life drug free
118. Own a ferret or chinchilla
119. Eat an entire bagel
120. Own a boat
121. Take an exericse class
122. Taste every flavor at Coldstone Creamery
123. Be a camp counselor
124. Hold a drive
125. Be someone's best friend
126. Visit Carnegie Hall
127. Be a maid of honor
128. Go to my senior prom
129. Tour a cave
130. Own a Smartphone
131. Go skydiving indoors
132. Spend a month on a space observing getaway
133. Go outdoor rock climbing
134. Take part in a national event
135. Go to a jazz concert
136. Bake cupcakes
137. Watch an NHL game
138. Pass an entire year of math
139. Drink Red  Bull
140. Create a map of my life
141. Keep a pet from birth to death
142. Adopt a child
143. Play a Gamecube
144. Take a friend to Plymouth
145. Visit Ron Jon's Surf Shop
146. Go on a legitimate picnic
147. Hold a koala
148. Learn to drive
149. See Haley's Comet
150. Learn to play chess
151. Attend a Youtube gathering or other live event
152. Appear in a story in a national magazine or newspaper
153. Spend the night in a graveyard
154. Walk through the entire National Liberty Museum
155. Watch the sunrise on New Years Day
156. Go snowboarding indoors
157. Go on a shoe drop
158. Plant a garden
159. Ride in a dune buggy
160. Visit India
161. Spend a weekend in a lake town
162. Pet a squirrel
163. Visit the Mall of America
164. Write a zine
165. Be able to count 1-10 in 10 different languages
166. Walk inside of Radio City
167. Travel on a yacht
168. Meet John Green
169. Watch a volcano erupt
170. Watch Little Shop of Horrors
172. Pet a wallaby
173. Eat a whole candy apple
174. Fill an entire journal
175. Learn to swim
176. Write a list in order
177. Visit Busche Gardens
178. Own all of John Green's book
179. Walk inside of Studio 54
180. Finish this list
181. Catch a snipe
182. Attend a state fair
183. Complete an internship
184. Attend church every Sunday for a year
185. Help out at a kitchen on Thanksgiving
186. Be confirmed
187. Help paint a mural
188. Weave a basket
189. Attend a high school reunion
190. Job shadow someone
191. Eat movie theater candy
192. Go to a college or job fair
193. Adopt a grandparent
194. Tutor someone
195. Take part in a toy drop
196. Decorate my room the way I want it
197. Introduce the world to me
198. See a live orchestra
199. Have my fantasy life/movie moment occur spontaneously
200. Master the drums

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

1, 2, 3, 4...AGH! Make the numbers stop!



I can't stand math. It's as simple as that. i can't stand looking at numbers, let alone solving the problem.Nobody seems to understand, as emo as that may sound. I can't even handle simple problems like long division or even telling time on an analog clock. I can't measure anything that is a 'weird' length. I can't grasp the concept of exponents or scientific notation. I freak out around decimals and fractions. The list goes on and on. Most people use math countless times a day. I, on the other hand, avoid it as much as possible. I am most always estimating things, hoping it's my lucky day.

If you look at my math grade, you'd probably laugh at me. I actually tried at least 80% of the assignments/quizzes/tests and yet the majority is also 60% or below. I try, I really do. I try to the point that I cry and get so aggravated I want to throw something or someone across the room.

I think it's so much more depressing when I think about the person that took the time out of their day to help me with math. They could have been doing something much more fun like hanging out with his "cooler" friends down the road. Not only am I failing in the actual classes, I'm also failing him. He wasted all of that time helping me and for nothing. I just really want him to know how much I appreciate his volunteered time and how sorry I really am. When others try helping me with math, they just give me the answer, get annoyed, think of me as being dumb, and so on and so forth. He, on the other hand, doesn't care if he has to do the same problem three times or answer common math sense questions for me. Unlike the others, he never gave up on me.

The bottom line is that I give up. At this point, I have no problem failing my current math class. Well, that's actually false. I DO have a problem with it, but my emotional health is screaming at me to just give up. I don't like giving up. I hate that phrase, but sometimes we all have to make sacrifices. I just miss that feeling I had back in elementary school when I understood everything and could follow what the numbers meant on the board. Unfortunately, that didn't last past fourth grade. Now the only thing that keeps me going is the excitement, relief, and happiness I feel when I understand a mathematical concept or sometimes when I simply solve a problem. I've been behind for so long, I have this feeling that there's no catching up now.

Consider this to be the official I quit math post.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Hero (s Are Made When You Make A Choice)



You have most likely heard about the event I organized at school on Thursday, April 8th called One Day Without Shoes. The sole purpose of this event, of going to school shoeless, was to raise awareness about third-world countries and their lack of necessities. TOMS Shoes is the original creator of this event. It is considered a "for-profit company." That means that minus expenses such as employment fees, shipping, traveling costs, and so on, all of the money goes towards those children in need of shoes. The way TOMS works is that money doesn't matter. It's one for one. Every time they sell a pair of shoes, they give a pair of shoes to a child in need. More than 600,000 shoes have been given away to 28 different countries. Purdue, Lafayette, and West Lafayette together helped purchase 174 pairs. It doesn't seem like much, but it is. For most children they are given to, that's their first pair and that one pair can last them up until adolescence. Around 300 McCutcheon students participated, but merely 3,000 people participated nationally, McCutcheon not included.

I can't say this enough times, but I am so proud of our school and the amount of people that actually joined in on the event. I never would have dreamed to get such positive feedback! I wish I could personally thank each and every participant. This event really took to my heart. If you know anyone that participated in the event and has not already seen this, please send this to them so that I can express my thanks to them.

I know some people took part in the event just because they had the chance to not wear shoes to school, but there were so many others that really supported the cause and realized how good we have it here. We get to go to school! We get to wear shoes! We get to go home everyday and not worry about how we will feed our family that day. We are so lucky to live here and many got to realize that through this cause. 

I have always stood for human rights and helping people. I volunteer within our community with every chance I get, I go out of my way to hep as many people as I can, and most of my future aspirations have to do with helping people. I believe that all people should should have the same basic rights. It breaks my heart to see that there are people complaining about having math homework while there's a child in Afghanistan who can't even walk the 9 miles to school because they have no shoes. Through time, I have come to realize that things don't just change on their own. People have to get up and bring that change.

We all have things in our lives that makes us want to just give up. Perhaps a parent died, maybe a friend turned their back on you, perhaps you broke up a long-term relationship, whatever it is, if you were to look back on your life seconds before you died, would you remember any of these things or would you remember all of the ways you have changed the world? 

The next awareness day I am partaking in is on April 16th on behalf of the LGBT (Lesbian, gay, bisexual, trans-gender) community. No, I am not involved in that community, but as I stated earlier, I do believe in equal rights. On this day, I will not say a single word. That's right! I am going silent for the whole day to bring attention to the harassment, bullying, and similar hardships that LGBT members go through daily. This will not be a school event like One Day Without Shoes due to the sensitivity of the topic, but feel free to join in on that day too.

As you can probably guess, I have so much more that I want to say, but I will stop right here.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Hello Goodbye (Speechies)



I have been a speech competitor or a “Speechie” for five years so far. Out of those five years, I have spent two being coached by Ms. Whitcombe, one of the best coaches I could ever ask for. Some may not see her like I do, in fact I hear many complaints about her, but whoever it is that complains about her, clearly don’t realize that the majority of their complaints coincide with reasons why I think she’s such a fantastic coach. Witty Whitcombe doesn’t let us give up. She pushes us to the limit and inspires us through her own speeches. She tips us and gives us advice on subjects that reach far beyond the speech world. Whitcombe is a friend to us speechies and will always be remembered like so. Sure, sometimes she can get on my nerves, but that just means she’s probably making me work too hard, which let’s face it, isn’t a bad thing.

My much loved 2010 speech season is sadly and devastatingly coming to its end. Not to mention that our very own prestigious Chad Barker “Baker” will be graduating, leaving us in his midst of talent and success. I am proud to have had the opportunity to have met Baker. He has given me loads of advice and inspiration. I’m an infamous sap between my friends. When something inspires me so intensely, I tend to cry. Chad Barker has indeed caused me to cry on occasions, in a good manner of course, and I thank him for that. Our speech team will never be the same without him, but I am excited to see who will take his place as the McCutcheon speech team “pep-er.”

Little Miss Spunk, AKA Chrystal. Ruiz is a great addition to our team. I love and admire her willingness to state her opinion. She doesn’t care what anyone thinks. If someone has a horrible outfit on she’ll make sure they know it. And just for the sake of tech crew, her brother is “a total hottie.”

Ruthann gave me a Twix and does favors for me, so I have to love her. If she were a dragon, I would name her Felonay. She would be my dragon. I would hug my dragon and love my dragon if Ruthann were my dragon.

Next is Ms. Courtney Orme, my big buddy. There is no one I love complaining to more than her. We make each other laugh and smile more times than I can begin counting. For that, I am thankful for meeting her, but kind of upset too that I hadn’t met her earlier.

Mr. Greengritch, Greenbridge, Greenwich, Greenbritches, Nathan, et cetera is an assistant coach for us all. He’s like the uncle. His speech tips are quite professional, regardless of the fact that he’s not too experienced. With his amazing eyes, totally killer physique, and as Chrystal says, his “awesome butt”, Nathan is as simply as I can put it, the shiznit.

Hannah Muldoon is one of our silent leaders. She’s one of those quiet speech kids ahtat you don’t stumble upon very often. That’s okay though because that’s just what makes her unique. He leadership skills don’t go unnoticed and the support she has for her teammates surely amazes me.

Teshia Sopher…I love talking to Teisha Sopher. She understands me, most of the time. I annoy her a lot and frighten her quite often.

Michael is the loudest of them all. He’s the loudest, the proudest, and the harshest. (Evidently that’s a word) You’ll hear his Nazi yells from Timbuktu. The prideful look in his eyes when he wins a ribbon is very respectable.

Kortney, one of our officers, has one of the best New York accents I have ever heard. Not only that, but she is also the best dressed on our entire speech team without a doubt. Her music taste is somewhat similar to my own, AKA her taste in music is AWESOME!

If I had to give Megan an award, it would either be “Best Smile”, “Wittiest Remarks”, or “Quickest Thinker”. She is one of the best problem solvers on the team. She may appear to be a cutie, but beware. Never judge a book by its cover. This is very true when it comes to Megan. Her adorable appearance leaves you disarmed when one of her witty retorts hits you like a Tokyo bullet train.

Ryan is a speech team newbie as well and one of the dorkiest speechies I know. That’s what makes him so loveable though. That, and his dry humor.

Rachel and Mickala have not gotten completely used to speech team yet. They still seem to struggle with their confidence and the weirdness of the rest of us, but rest assured, that will certainly change next year.

My duo partner, Taniecia, or Niecy as I like to spell it, Is exciting and extremely entertaining. Her sister, Paris, is just as awesome and when you get the two of them together, it’s one hell of a ride. They’re your cliché black former Chicago residents. They talk loudly and use street slang terms such as “shawty” and “your man.” Paris is not officially on our team, but she sure is awesome enough to be. They never fail to make me smile.

Jason “Tiki” Tieke, I’m almost at a loss of words. On the exterior, this little bundle of spunk is an extremely perverted “man.” He’s almost always making sexual jokes and comments. On the inside, however, Tiki has such an amazing personality. I respect him greatly for this. Although he sits at the butt of many people’s jokes, he forgives them and is always there when you need him, and even if you don’t need him. I feel gifted to have known him as well.

Jacob is the newest of the bunch. I enjoy his cynical remarks. I love him (As a friend). He loves me back, but he just won’t admit it.

Ian Riemenschneider, Ramen Schnoodle, Ion, in other words, my best speech friend out of them all. It’s hard to choose favorites, but I did. He has one heck of a personality and you almost always see a different side of him. If you don’t know him too well, he either comes off as a jerk or just a complete nerd, which I must say is so true. Even with his combination of his WoWness, conceit, and love/hate for violence, I love him and am going to miss him dearly when the stupid butthole goes to Harrison! And I’d like to add that I didn’t have too Facebook him to spell his last name. I’m proud.

Zuri is my fiercest competitor. I still beat her every time at “The Hokey Pokey” though. She only wishes she were as awesome as I. Just kidding, but really, Zuri so much fun to tease.

Norman, another inexperienced coach, is loved by all. Her excitement for the simple things in life empowers us all to have fun and be unique. Sadly, she won’t be joining us next year either. I wish her good luck in all that she does and I hope to see that Lost-obsessed ball of spunk again soon!

Jordan and Victoria are the speech couple of the year. He’s sexist and she’s coffee-obsessed. They were the first two speechies to end up dating and it sure did take long enough! They’re both speech newbies, but that’s okay because you would never be able to tell anyways.

And in his words, I “saved the best for last.” Aaron Watson, my dear ‘ole friend Watson. Let me tell you, he lives up to his name. Watson seems to have walked right out of George Orwell’s classic, 1984. This kid will surely go far. After all, most people that aspire to lead a massive amount of people tend to succeed. Just to prove his power over all of us speechies, “Aaron is the coolest person on our speech team.”

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Masquerade (ing-the e)



Here are some notes I wrote to people which includes things I have been dying to say to people. They all have code names, by the way. If you're in it, You might know who you are.

Dawg-You're an idiot. Stop asking me for relationship advice. Can't you see that I like you?!
Kitty-You just hang out with them so you can get paid. I hang out with them because they're great kids. Leave them alone!
Sario-We were friends for almost four years and then you decide you don't like me anymore. Fine. Sure. Okay. Just stop talking crap about me and then turning around to talk to me about the "good ole days." We are family. Deal with it!
Fatty-You're almost in middle school. Grow up! Quit sleeping with your parents. Start doing your homework. Take a shower once in a while. Brush your teeth. Eat something other than McDonald's once in a while. Pick out your own clothes. Clean around the house like the rest of us.
Nugget-You say I'm your friend, but according to the way you treat me, I guess I'm just one of those friends you're ashamed to talk to. I have told you countless times how much I care about you. Don't you care about me too?
Blockbuster-Get a divorce! Can't you see that the family will be so much better without them in the picture?
Dress-You're a family member that I value so much. It hurts to see you leave us and I wish you could just stay.
Moon-I like to imagine out future, past, and present together. I like to write to you. It helps me believe that you're not gone. You're just on vacation.
Gangster-Stop telling me I'm not good enough! Stop pressuring me! I love you, but family shouldn't treat each other like that!
Cubee-Get off your butt/bar stool and help! 
Fey-Don't lie to me or lead me on! If you don't like me, tell me to my face! I can handle it. I would much rather hear the truth from you. And yes, I will approach you on Monday and yell at you.
Wick-I thought you were awesome until today. Hi, Jerk! Die, Jerk! Did you see that? I used our favorite show against you! 
Potter-I enjoy your company. Sometimes it would be nice if I could enjoy it though when you're not crying or telling me about more drama.
Jeff-You hurt me. You hurt me more than he did. And yes, I do hate you for it. I hear the stories from people you still talk to. And all I have to say is, You're an effing hypocrite! Ever since we quit talking, I can now smile and laugh. 
Charlie-Cheer up!  You have your whole life ahead of you! Don't let a minor set back get you down. Is that what she would've wanted?
Ginger-We had the craziest time of our lives last year! We promised to stick be one another. It doesn't help much when you're lying to me!  
Tumor-I love you still and miss you. Ever since you were gone, I haven't seriously dated anyone. I thought I was over you, but there's still a hole in my heart. Your family loves and misses you too, by the way.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Boys, Boys, Boys



Boys are as bad as girls. We both flirt even when we don't like the person. We both flirt with our friends' exs just for the sake of sanity  and drama. We also both chase people we know we can't have and so on and so forth.

It's funny how a few months ago, I was in my garage with three other friends, gossiping about said boys. Now it has come to the situation where I end up liking those one of those boys, one of the boys I criticised for being rude, selfish, controling, and so on and so forth.

Lately the boy situations for me has been going crazy and out of hand. I have at least two chasing me. I only like one of those, but what about the other? I consider myself to be a nice person. I don't like breaking hearts so when it comes to a situation like this, I just jump around the questions, telling them things I think they would want to hear.

We all flirt, and flirt, and flirt, until we can no longer flirt. We flirt just because we want to. How are people suppose to know if you're flirting because you really are interested or because it just sounds like fun?

Don't flirt back with people that aren't single. It will come back to bite you. It will be fun for the first while, but when you start getting feelings for the person, you know you're in trouble. It sucks, everyone knows it sucks, when you fall for someone who is taken.

Friday, January 29, 2010

200 Things I Hate

1. Talking
2. Sand/the beach
3. Mugginess
4. Sharp objects
5. Writing
6. Homework
7. People
8. Sleep deprivation
9. TV
10. Itunes/Ipods/ETC
11.Colored pencils
12. Being late
13. Sticky things
14. Naps
15. Facebook
16. Doing hair
17. Make up
18. Weddings
19. Youtube
20. Oversleeping
21. Math
22. Money
23. Losing things/people
24. Most ex's
25. Anatomy
26. Early morning TV
27. Being depressed
28. Problems
29. Cartoons
30. Asian food
31. Nike
32. The Peanuts
33. Stress
34. Fair/circus food
35. Westerns
36. Strawberries
37. Silent films
38. Blood
39. My name
40. Caramel
41. Afternoons
42. Thinking
43. Injuries
44. Bricks
45. 2 or more story houses
46. Literature books
47. Drugs
48. Receptiveness
49. Paranoia
50. Football
51. Art class
52. Cotton balls
53. Alcohol
54. Walking slow
55. Competitiveness
56. Cigarette smoke
57. School pictures
58. Sensei Peterson
59. Guys
60. Yarn
61. Guns
62. Balloons
63. Most celebrities
64. Mechanical pencils
65. Most videogames
66. Energy drinks
67. Analog clocks
68. Blouses
69. Satin
70. White shoes
71. Mating/sex
72. Ladders
73. Bridges
74. New York City
75. Slow internet
76. Toasters
77. Sports/duffle bags
78. Boats
79. Lafayette
80. Long skirts
81. Butterflies (the bugs)
82. Lamps
83. Laziness
84. Sewing
85. Clay
86. Glitter
87. Boots
88. Soccer
89. Roses/flowers
90. Toasters
91. Gangs
92. Fights
93. Ex-friends
94. Lakes/oceans/creeks/ETC
95. Parents
96. Swimming
97. Movie theaters
98. Goodbyes
99. Filing
100. Big textbooks
101. Japanese class
102. Unfolded paper
103. Used furniture
104. Yo-yos
105. Cinnamon
106. Scanners
107. School IDs
108. Rubix cubes
109. Silly putty
110. Crinkled paper
111. Chocolate milk
112. Caseless pillows
113. Screw drivers
114. Mattresses without comforters
115. Drills
116. Unmade beds
117. Diseases
118. My garage
119. Cold floors
120. Autism
121. Fluorescent lighting
122. Spider solitaire
123. Nags
124. Commercials
125. Wimpy tortilla shells
126.Department stores
127.Worthless anniversaries
128. Plums
129. Batman
130. Nazis
131. Sexism
132. Clothes that don't match
133. Softball
134. Caps lock
135. Prejudice
136. Mangos
137. Dirty whiteboards
138. Bowling
139. Large gauges
140. Popsicles
141. Holes in clothing
142. Septum piercings
143. Tongue depressors/popsicle sticks
144. Baseball caps
145. Forgetting
146. Saliva
147. Infections
148. Tongue piercings
149. Water beds
150. Immigrants that can't speak English
151. Foil
152. Bodily functions
153. Chores
154. Wasting paper
155. Excessive tattoos
156. Cracking joints
157. Toe rings
158. Red pens
159. Siblings
160. Gardening
161. Student councils
162. Obnoxious music
163. Pills
164. Rocks
165. Gold
166. Dentists
167. Mulch
168. Snow
169. Hospitals
170. Gravel
171. Rosetta Stone
172. Democrats
173. Nail polish
174. Doctors/nurses
175. Jungle gyms
176. Listening
177. Zoos
178. Tripping/falling/running into things
179. Monkey bars
180. Middle school
181. Sunglasses
182. Making lines
183. Hoop earrings
184. Farms
185. Racism
186. Rose Art
187. Monotone
188. Ballet
189. Drills (Fire, tornado, ECT)
190. Winter
191. Cruelty
192. Girl problems
193. Long car rides
194. The sun
195. Summer
196. Bad weather
197. The army
198. People being made fun of
199. Greasy chips
200. Posers (Inspired by Jake)

200 Things I Love

1. Colors
2. People
3. Animals
4. Blogging
5. Youtube
6. Useless information
7. Bows
8. TV
9. Music
10. Clicky pens
11. Converse
12. Sweaters
13. Vintage Tees
14. John Hughes movies
15. Pins
16. Texting
17. Arguing/debating
18. Rain
19. Tennis
20. Technology
21. Michael Moore films
22. Figure skating
23. Coloring
24. My step-grandpa
25. Thinking
26. Golf
27. Even numbers
28. Lists
29. Legos
30. Sansa
31. B.C. (Comic)
32. Strobe lights
33. Speech team
34. Foxtrot (Comic)
35. Blinking stuff
36. Musicals
37. Susan B. Anthon
38. Scarves
39. Arriving early
40. New Jersey
41. Talking
42. Jokes
43. Australia
44. Stars
45. The moon
46. Root beer
47. Meteorology
48. The paranormal
49. My laptop
50. Fort Sumpter
51. The internet
52. Myspace
53. Socialvibe
54. Editorials
55. Photography
56. Cell phones
57. Reese's
58. Tea
59. Theater
60. Oranges
61. Sharpening pencils
62. Hunting (Not animals)
63. Shopping
64. Sorting
65. Records/albums
66. Drumming
67. Teen talk
68. Foreign people
69. Surveys/quizzes
70. Electricity
71. Suduko puzzles
72. Talk shows
73. Watching winter sports
74. Roleplaying
75. Making birdhouses
76. Jigsaw puzzles
77. Sky watching
78. Sarcasm
79. Boxes
80. Writing
81. Markers
82. Pizza guys
83. A/V club
84. Cord phones
85. Mancala
86. Ballet flats
87. Quiz bowl
88. Typewriters
89. Smart Boards
90. Sleep deprivation
91. Noise
92. Baseball
93. Presenting things
94. Typing
95. Crayons
96. Concerts
97. The quiet
98. The light
99. Libraries
100. Pencils
101. Watching people/animals
102. Andy Warhol
103. Hippies
104. Pigtails
105. Freecreditreport.com commercials
106. Doodles
107. Asian architecture
108. Superbowl Commercials
109. Opening pencil bags
110. Board games
111. Newsboy caps
112. Plastic baggies
113. Messenger bags
114. Peanut butter
115. Lanterns
116. Hair clips
117. Quilts
118. Videotaping things/people
119. Window chalk
120. Pictures
121. Lined paper
122. Hair ties
123. Teased hair
124. Party lights
125. Zippers
126. Parties
127. Labeling things
128. Anklets
129. Hoodies
130. Quotes/sayings
131. My baby blankets
132. Teddy and my cheetah
133. Boy shorts
134. Gum
135. Colored hair
136. Candy
137. Sentimental gifts
138. Mints
139. Piercings
140. Necklaces
141. Incense
142. Being scared
143. Train tracks
144. Tank tops
145. Itch relief sticks
146. Short sleeve shirts
147. Oxy pads
148. Pledge
149. Hamster wheels/balls
150. Pale eyes
151. Youth group
152. Anticipation
153. Adrenaline rushes
154. Wavy lines
155. Mysteries
156. Skinny jeans
157. Japanese beetles
158. The place across from Indiana Beach
159. Organization
160. Band tees
161. Hydrogen peroxide
162. Guys
163. Chubby cheeks
164. Planning ahead
165. Aquariums
166. Side-swept bangs
167. WWE
168. Candles
169. Counting
170. Scrapbooks
171. Memories
172. Camp Tecumseh
173. Autobiographies
174. Waking up early
175. Beads
176. Sweatshirts with big pockets in the front
177. Straws
178. Organization
179. DVD special features
180. DVD's
181. Dixie cups
182. Space heaters
183. Scissors
184. Bracelets
185. Alice in Wonderland
186. Foam
187. Pen caps
188. Horoscopes
189. Fruits
190. Banks
191. Carrots
192. Stickers
193. Diamonds
194. Calendars
195. Sad movies
196. Derbies
197. College
198. Museums
199. Cross-stitching
200. That one kid I like

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